On Monday night I SI and it just happened so fast. I had had a great day and then something upset me and I immediately ran to the bathroom, got my “tool” and just did it. Thinking back I know what I did wrong and I think it might help in the future to know what I did wrong so I can change it. I should have taken a breath and widened my window of oppurtunity, I should have just stopped for just a second and thought about the consequences, I should have filled out an impulse control log (those really help me out). I regretted it as soon as it was over. Does anyone else feel stupid, or ashamed , or panicked afterward?
I know what you mean. I’ve definitely felt all of those things after calming down from SI, and i always seem to regret it afterward.
Don’t be too hard on yourself! Everyone has their slip-ups, but it looks like you’ve got some really good alternatives to use when you need them.
Take care of yourself <3
thanks 🙂 so far so good