I can’t exactly tell you why I signed up for here. Everyone on here is on the happy road to recovery, and I’m no where near it. I want to stop, but I don’t. It’s gotten past the point where SI isn’t even a big deal.
I’m here to ask only one thing. Where is a truly trustworthy place to go to when you’re feeling suicidal and in need of help? I don’t want to talk to someone on the phone because I’m not comfortable with that, but like emailing someone. Because I’ve been feeling horrible lately, and I just can’t do it alone. I’ve tried.
Thanks for listening.
im far from recovery trust me. im not suicidal but i do SI too often. So your not alone. And feel free to email me whenever if you wanna talk, i get emails on my phone so i ususally try to answer back in the hour. iheartwater@hotmail.com
Hey,
I am honestly glad that you signed up. This blog has helped me through the times when all I wanted to do was give up, and it helped me see that everyone is worth fighting for. I know what it feels like to be torn between wanting and not wanting to get better, but if you really search, there will always be a part of you wanting to get better.
As for talking about being suicidal, I know from experience that talking about it can make you feel a lot better. I would be careful talking to friends about it unless you have a very strong bond. Some people can’t handle you talking about this with them, so maybe a counselor would be better.
I’ve done (and am currently still doing) the counselor route, and it can be very helpful if you are open-minded and willing to talk. I never believe in bottling things up, because that only results in the feelings accumulating inside with no outlet, causing worse things to happen in the end than if you had just talked about it. There are also some helpful online chats that let you chat with counselors and stuff, maybe do a google search for that.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that I am very proud of you for reaching out for help here, it proves that you want to get better. Talk to someone, be it a counselor, a parent, a chat, or a close friend (if they are comfortable with it) about your feelings and feeling suicidal. You have too much to live for, everyone does! Simply having a life is worth living for, if you get what I’m trying to say.
I really hope the best for you,
Staystrong
I’m not close recovery yet either but I I’ve found a lot of hope on here reading others stories and knowing im not alone…I’m glad you signed up, reaching out for help is a great step in the right direction, be proud of yourself 🙂 As for the suicidal thoughts, I agree with staystrong, a counselor would probably be ideal. I made the mistake of telling friends when I felt suicidal and they didn’t know what to do or how to react and it ended up doing more harm than good. But DEFINITELY talk to someone if you’re feeling like that. email me anytime at TBoneFlo387@hotmail.com
best wishes and take care
Steph