“I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing
Just prayin’ to a god that I don’t believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don’t break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that’s gonna put her first
While I’m wide awake she’s no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don’t breakeven… even… no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up that you’re ok
I’m falling to pieces, yeah,
I’m falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the _____
Cos she’s moved on while I’m still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don’t breakeven even… no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up that you’re ok
I’m falling to pieces, yeah,
I’m falling to pieces, yeah,
I’m falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I’m falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don’t breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I’m try’na make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing
Just prayin’ to a god that I don’t believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don’t break
No it don’t break
No it don’t break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I’m all choked up that you’re ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I’m falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I’m glad your okay)
I’m falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I’m falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don’t breakeven)

Oh it don’t break even no
Oh it don’t break even no
Oh it don’t break even no”

Right now I feel like me heart was torn out of my chest and stomped on. My hands won’t steop shaking and I know I will probably mess up some of the wording in this post because of it. I want to cry.. I want the tears to fall freely from my eyes and just let out my pain without me thinking about SI,or wanting to cease living. But the problem is,I can’t cry. I have barely cried in almost a year. I might let out a few tears every now and again if something provokes it. But I haven’t cried one of those cries that shake your body and leave you gasping for air. Thats what I want right now though,despretly. I want this feeling to be gone and to never come back. I want to stop wanting to hamr myself and to stop loving when I know the love is not reciprocal.
My stomach is twisting and turning in sadness and anger.

I just want to stop feeling. Just.. stop.