Wow. Today one of my best guyfreinds Devon saw my scars. He doesnt know i injure and i dont know if i want to tell him. But he questioned them and i just froze. i was choked up and caught so off guard by the suddeness of the question. And so i lied. I made up an excuse like a bike accident or something. But he knew somithing was off. Later tonight he noticed some of my other scars. I could tell he was worried. I tried to play it off like nothing happened or it was an accident and cracked jokes to take his mind off it but secretly i was SCREAMING inside. I wish i had the courage to open up to him without facing the inevitable. And the thing is im beggining to reallly like him and yet i know i cant. Im so emotionaly unstable that if he breaks my heart like my ex did i know i might shatter. And i cant have this happen. Im so confused/frightened/worried/scared. ughh…