Screaming so loud
I try to block out your whispering
But the silent sounds scream louder than ever.
Your eyes are covered
By a veil fabricated by the pain we went through
That we blamed on each other.
You can’t see how much she hurt me, now,
You can’t break through your grudge.
You can’t even offer your friendship again
Even after all the things we went through together.
Even as you see my pain right in front of you
Can you see it?
Can you see through my disguise the same as you used to?
When we were there for each other.
She was never your best friend like I was
Never held you like I did
She never hurt you
Like she hurt me.
You can’t see the evil hiding in her seemingly innocent eyes.
All of this pain is accumulating
I think I’m safe
Then I see your scars
Or I see my own
Then I remember how much she hurt me
And how you take her side.
I remember that it all could have been different
If we had never started this pain
If we were still best friends,
And I’m overwhelmed by urges
Will it ever go away?