It’s been about a month since I SIed…I was so proud of myself…then all of the sudden I started to feel anxious and suicidal. I was crying all the time and hurting so much on the inside. I needed to relieve the pain…I had gone so long since I SIed…I’m so disappointed in myself. I don’t feel suicidal or anxious anymore though…but I’m afraid those feelings are going to come back…then I’ll have the urge again. I don’t want to feel this way anymore!! Does anyone else ever get like this? Do you feel anxious b/c you’re not SIing? Please Help Me!!!
I do sometimes. When i hit a long time like over 2 months, i want to but at the same time i know i shouldnt. so i take my tools out look at them, and then put them away, and when i ususally get to that point i end up Si-ing soon after. So yeah i do get anxious when i dont do it. Which makes me want it more, which makes me do it. I know there are plenty of ways to distract yourself when you get the urge to do it, but if they work is another thing.