I had been doing well…18 days SI free then I had the brilliant idea to have a drink last night and it was all downhill from there. I knew I was having a manic day and I knew I shouldnt have drank but I made a bad choice. I self-injure a lot when i’ve been drinking. I feel so dissapointed in myself when I knew better and then for hurting myself. I kind of feel like it would be easier to just give up and give in to it rather than start again.