This feud between my friends and I is getting ridiculous. Now there are rumors going around about me. I’m almost positive that the people mad at me started all of this. I hate it. I abused substances and decided to SI like 2 nights ago. I’m not even sure how I feel about that. I’m not sure how I feel about anything anymore.
I just want all of it to stop. I don’t need this drama. I was actually semi-happy before all of this and now? I feel like I have nothing. And nobody.
I’m sorry if I’m misunderstanding but was the first time you SIed the other night?
If so.. oh please please do not get into this. it’s so easy to get sucked in.
if im wrong.. then sorry for misunderstanding
im sorry about your friends and the rumors. try to wait it out though. most things like that pass over eventually.
I find that I SI worse when I am using substances to be careful. Im not sure why that is the case but one of my worst episodes was while under the influence. Just be careful…I know things are tough right now but try to wait it out.
no it wasnt the first time.
i just actually felt bad about doing it that night…but i secretly felt happy about doing it
i literally dont know what to do anymore.
im just tired of always being the “bigger” person and letting things blow over.
ill figure stuff out i guess