This is the first time i actually write about my problem. I have so many scars and i tried , i promised myself not to do it again, i never wear a swimsuit,  i cover myself up. I feel alone, i feel alone all the time, even though i am in a crowd of people i still feel alone. Nobody to talk to , no one of my friends would understand why i started this when i was 13. Today i did t again, for the first time in so long i did it, something bad happened and i did it. And for the first time in a long time i felt alive again but i don’t want to do it. I want to stop