So someone told me that when I SI and forget the reason why I SI’ed that I did it for no reason. It’s just that when I SI it’s a “do and forget” type of thing(some of the time). It makes me feel horrible but it makes me feel good at the same time.
So what do you think, do you agree with the person? 🙁
for me there arent always exact reasons
sometimes just a feeling
an overwhelming feeling i cant even explain
it just happens.
I used to think there was absolutely no reason sometimes, just boredom or whatever. But then my sponsor in my 12 step program for my eating disorder suggested that I write every little thing I’m thinking when I get an urge. I had nothing to lose, so I tried it. Sometimes it started with “I don’t know, whatever, I am bored or lonely or something.” But as I kept doing it, I realized there was usually an underlying “trigger” that I only discovered through writing down my thoughts. One time I realized there was an episode of a tv show on in the background & they were having a funeral for a pet & it was bringing up childhood memories of my own pets who had died. Once I got this down on paper, the urge went away.
i dont always have a specific “reason”. sometimes i just want it, like say an ice cream. I crave it almost. other times i need to get rid of thoughts, to feel im real. So no i dont agree with that person.