What I understand is that I have a couple of friends, good friends, who are mad at me. We have talked things out and things were supposed to change but they didn’t. Everything is worse. I feel like I can’t even go around our friend group because the two people are mad at me. I know this isn’t fact because I have seen multiple people from our big friend group and they seem fine with me. But in the back of my head, they are talking bad about me. So I si(ed) a couple weeks ago. It didn’t do anything except make me want to keep doing it. I haven’t. But I’m tired of the urges. I don’t know what to do. I really don’t. I’m just tired of this fighting and people telling me to get over it and wanting to do bad things.