Been feeling lately like there is really no hope for me and that I might as well give in to this self-injury thing. Whenever I think about my dreams coming true I think of it as a bunch of bull. I should just remember how everyone in my life has told me that I will never amount to anything, but a big huge pile of ____ and that I will always be a loser in everyone’s eyes no matter where I go. I just feel right now that I have only one true friend who will never let me down.You see the way I look at it if anyone wants me (friends)why don’t they call it’s all just a bunch of bull. If I need a friend it’s (SI) there and that never lets me down at all. Sorry to lay this on, but I’m just so tired of going forward when it doesn’t really matter.