So, I’m new, technically.
I made one of these back in the summer, but i just made a new one because I forgot. I have depression, and i self injure. I’m seeing a psychologist, but i don’t really like it. It doesn’t help because i can’t tell her anything.
Anyway, my friend self injures too, and then she turned bulimic. We both are just really lost, and we get really down. She was recently admitted to a psychiatric hospital for adolescents, and it’s killing me. I miss her so much. I can’t even talk to her.
It made me think about myself a lot. I feel like, selfish for being depressed, because i know there are other people out there who have it a lot worse. Don’t ask me why, i just am depressed. I don’t know why, and it makes me feel even worse. I talk to my mom a little, but i’m so embarrassed by everything. I can’t talk to anyone about it.
She said she would call my doctor, get me an appointment with a psychiatrist for like medicine.
She asked me if i want to go away like my friend, like for real.
I said i don’t know.
I don’t really know. I just don’t want to feel like this anymore. I sort of want to go to a hospital, or more like a treatment center (there is no SAFE by me :/), but i don’t know. I’m scared and confused.
I just don’t understand myself, and i’m done.
HI disguised, I’m coming to understand this type of self-harm lately and I hope that I can help a bit.
You said you were depressed and you don’t know why. Does the pain from injuring make sense to you when your depression doesn’t?
I know there’s hope. I hope yuou choose to use this site S.A.F.E. We just want you better so you can enjoy your life.
hi marcelp.
i dont really know why i am depressed. im stressed, little things get me down, and there has been a lot of drama in the past year (including starting high school). i started SIing in the summer. i thought about it a lot and never imagined it get this bad.
i keep doing it now because i have to. sometimes i just do it because i feel i need to, like ive gone to long. but when im really upset, thats when i do it and dont realize how bad it feels. i dont even know why i do it, i just need to.
and thank you <3
There is something you can do to better understand who you are, and the why’s of self-injury. Before I went into the S.A.F.E program I read a book called “Bodily Harm” it helps you understand what the program is and all has assignments to help you better understand your past, the present and how much better your future can be. If you need anymore help I would be glad to received an e-mail from and them maybe I could help you with whatever urges or questions you may have: E-Mail: denny666@verizon.net
I really can related and understand what it is that you’re going through.