I’ve had a horrible day today. I was supposed to go hang out with my boyfriend, but my Mom said no. And she wouldn’t even give me a reason. Every time I asked why she wouldn’t let me she said, “Because I said so” Which made me really mad. She wouldn’t let me do the one thing that makes me happy for no good reason. And it’s not like it was even going to inconvenience her, he would have came and picked me up, then brought me home. It’s so not fair. So I’ve been upset all day. And to make matters worse, someone started a rumor that I’m pregnant. So now, everyone’s talking about that behind my back. I feel like my mom doesn’t want me to be happy. Everything I want she says no to, and she doesn’t even really talk to me anymore, or ask my opinion on anything, whatever she says goes. She yells at me all the time over nothing. And it seems like all I ever hear anymore is “I’m disapointed in you.” She thinks I should measure up to my brother, who never does anything wrong in her eyes, he’s perfect. I even heard her talking once and she was telling my dad how bad they raised me and how screwed up I turned out. I feel like she doesn’t even love me anymore. She doesn’t want me to be with my boyfriend, she even told me that. And me and him both agree that she hates him. It just tears me apart that she won’t let me see and doesn’t like the one thing that I love. I want to SI so bad right now, I don’t know what to do…please help.
I know exactly what you are going through. My mom is the same way, and she thinks my brother is perfectly perfect, too, and that I’m practicly the devil. I just have to pray to God and ask him to comfort me through my stuggles. I’ll pray for you, too : )
Thank you:]
I’m gonna need it.
Wow, that sounds just like my life almost, and I get how your feeling, just like why can’t she give you one reason, and a good one at that, not a “because I said so, or a because I’m the boss or its life deal with people saying no to you” . Just none of that makes sense to me really, and I’m not sure what advice to give you because I’m not sure I would be able to not do “IT” just because I give up on trying to not do “IT” so easily. Which I’m also not saying you should go down that path because I always feel guilty after, but I don’t know, maybe listen to music, or exersice, which I’m definetly not calling you fat, but it works for me, it like frees my mind, especially with music, but I have to be intoxicated by it if you know what I mean. So definetly try to find a way to cope with it like music or exercise, or maybe even talk to me, not trying to be creepy, haaa! I just like talking to new people and trying to help in some way possible. XD anyways good luck to you.