sometimes i wonder how i ended up so alone, like one day i just woke up and realized i had no one to talk to . no one to tell my problems to. i dont know when that happened. i have great friends. but i still dont want to talk to them. i feel like they have been through the struggle with me from day 1 (7 years ago) and i dont want them to think im some needy person. and im not. im always there for them. i always help them when they need it. i know i CAN talk to them. but i always feel like im a burden. but idk. i feel like a broken record just going on and on about being alone. i know we are virtually alone, no one else is literally doing what your doing. but at the same time you can go through life with others. idk my mom was complaining to me the other day about her life, my sister in law tells me all her problems, my dad tells me all his problems, my aunt always tells me her problems. and here i am, listening to all these people complain on a daily basis. who do i have to talk to? to tell them i want to SI too often. i dont however ( the si part). i keep my tools close to me so i COULD, but i dont. i know its bad for me. but the want and need for it never goes away. but then if i tell them that theyll think im sick. theyll think im mentally ill. im not. i just need something to make me feel better. and since talking to someone isnt an option the ony thing that makes things better is SI. ive been good for almost two weeks. i dont know how much longer ill be until the next time. ill be back soon enough. it seems like this site is my only true friend. i can come here and say exaclty whats on my mind. does that make my real friends… fake? whatever.
Well i deffinatly know what you are talking about, about being burdened by others and worrying about burdening friends.. I asked my mom to take me to a therapist so that way I could talk without feeling guilty. Maybe something like that could help you too.
You should know that you are not alone, others on this site would agree that they feel the same way as us, i’m sure. Also, I dont think that your friends are fake.. but be honest with them,show your friends that your real, and maybe you’ll find that they really are too.
good luck <3
i know exactly how you feel. everyone i know tells me there problems but i tell no one mine. i have a few friends i could tell but i somehow cant. Though i dont share i am a very good listener. talking on here doesn’t give you fake friends, just not very close friends, besides everyone here knows what your going through. blackdragon7678@mchsi.com if you ever wanna talk <3
if you ever want to talk: monicacasperino@aol.com
thanks guys. Im trying to open up with my friends little by little. I will def email =] Thanks. <3
I understand, sometimes I prefer to be alone rather than getting friends. Only because I’m afraid of rejection, hurt, and my trust issues that you read 😛
Thankfully I found this site and realized I’m not entirely alone.<3
E-mail me sometime (:
sincerelyxhannah@yahoo.com