I am 43 yr old female. I just thought I was crazy I have injured since I was about 14.  My whole family sees it and I am ashamed, but can’t stop. I have thought I was a freak all my life with the injuries everyone can see. I don’t even know why I do it. Have been diagnosed with depression several times, but have never followed through. Do not want people knowing what’s inside my head. I don’t even want to know what is in there. Yes there was sexual abuse as a child to my siblings, not to me. Both parents died when I was 23, married a man who was an alcoholic till about 4 years ago. And now I have a medical illness called malabsorption syndrome from a gastric bypass that went very bad. I am deficient in 11 vitamins that I know of, am on total disability. And this is just the stuff I am comfortable telling you. There is way more. So can anyone help me?