i did it. well almost. i dont think i have ever had a hard time saying anything as i did saying “Take me to a Therapist”. A few nights ago, i just spit the words out randomly to my mother. she looked confused because she doesnt know anything that is going on in my mind.. but it felt good. i just spit it out. I explained that it wasnt her fault, but that i had a lot of anger and i didnt want to start a he said, she said battle between my family.. so i said i wanted to involve someone who could help but didnt have to get personally involved.
I’m nervous now because I will have to face someone in person, a real human interaction that is going to force me to face my feelings. I want help.. but its so scary. You would think that telling my mom would have been the hard part. I’m worried what is going to happen.. do I have to tell them of my SI? Are they going to tell my parents everything i tell them? I have never been to a therapist like this before and dont know what is going to happen. can someone give me pointers on what i should expect, say, not say?
I would like to thank all of you for your support. Everytime i am feeling angry I just give myself a reminder that I need help and deserve it, even though i sometimes dont really believe that. I just want to tell you that you were right, telling my mom was sooo hard. but i think its going to get a lot better. i’m scared, nervous, anxious, upset about talking. but im excited. i just need to know what to expect, please : )
Thank you for your loving words. And please get help if you need it. You deserve it 🙂 and so do I.
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CONGRADULATIONS on your road to recovery! You made the first step in the right direction. Trust me, it is nerve racking but its not as bad as it seems. You’ll get through it and I hope you get better quickly 🙂
You have to be honest with them, as well as be honest with yourself. They are legally not really allowed to tell your parents ANYTHING you tell them, unless you are or seem suicidal and your life is in danger. But as far as self injury goes, they can’t say anything to your parents about it, especially if you go in with a good attitude and want to get better. You are helping yourself in more ways than you’re aware of by entering therapy, but it can only help if you are COMPLETELY and entirely honest with the therapist. Facing your problems is part of solving them, and it will be of much much benefit to you. I’ve been in and out of therapy since I was maybe, 8, so if you have any questions and want to ask them, you can email me at ohc0nnahhh@aim.com. I’ll tell you that the room you’re in with a therapist is the safest place for all your secrets, because they stay there. My therapist has told me exactly that, and she’s so right. Good luck with this, I hope you do well. Remember, honesty is key. With your therapist and yourself, mostly.
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Thank you so much, rescue, for your advice. I dont want them to think that I am a drama queen or pessimistic. (I had a counselor that told me i was, i think thats why i am so nervous). I will try to remember honesty. I dont want to have to be someone I’m not in therapy, I guess thats the hardest part because I’m so used to faking my way through the day. Thank you for your advice… and I might use that e-mail later on 🙂
I hope you are doing well, <3
No problem. Good luck! 😀