i couldnt stop it this time. all the time and effort i put into it, wasted. i hadn’t si’ed in nearly two years. My boyfriend and i broke up and then got back together only for me to find out he had already slept with three other people and was dating someone in less than a months time….. we were together three days before it ended badly yet again. i just cant stay with him after all that. if he can leave and just get over me like that when i actually loved this person. i dont understand it . . . so i si’ed. now im a single mom with three kids ( one of them is his ) and im so depressed and cant stop crying . . . everyones running amok…… and nothing seems to matter…… ive lost ten pounds an none of my clothes fit. but who cares. nothing matters…. Injuring is the only thing that will never leave me. . . like the same echo i hear from so many others who si….
I have found that breakups are the worst time for my SI’ing. It sounds like things are pretty out of control for you right now and SI’ing is the only thing that you have control over. You can get through this without SI’ing. Be gentle with yourself and use the supports that you have. Ask for help when you need it and don’t be ashamed. You will get through this like we all get through the hard times.