119
119 days of fighting
119 days of urges
119
A personal record
Of holding back
Of staying strong
119 days
Of battling the addiction,
Battling the self-injurer inside of me
119 days
But still it’s on my mind,
119 days,
But it’s still haunting me
119 days
Of refraining from hurting the people I love
I should be proud,
But I’m scared,
119 days
Is a long record to hold,
What if I slip up? Relapse?
119 days is a long time,
But not long enough to forget
How much hurting myself hurts everybody else.
119 days.
Love this!! Keep hanging on, you can do it!!:))
Good job!! 119 days is ALOT!!! Good luck and power to you to 120, then 121, 122, 123, to a million! =]
i hope things work out for you better than they are for me 🙂
jdoe1996,
I remember when I first came to this site and I was so lost, I felt so hopeless… I remember when I was having a really hard time and I would read posts about staying s.i.-free for so long and I wished so hard that I could get there… all you have to do is stay hopeful and stay strong. I know that it’s a lot harder than it sounds, but anyone can stay s.i.-free for as long as they want, you just have to stay strong. 🙂
Staystrong