119

119 days of fighting

119 days of urges

119

A personal record

Of holding back

Of staying strong

119 days

Of battling the addiction,

Battling the self-injurer inside of me

119 days

But still it’s on my mind,

119 days,

But it’s still haunting me

119 days

Of refraining from hurting the people I love

I should be proud,

But I’m scared,

119 days

Is a long record to hold,

What if I slip up?  Relapse?

119 days is a long time,

But not long enough to forget

How much hurting myself hurts everybody else.

119 days.