*sigh* well 1 im new here and i dont know how to start out…

lately ive been like sooo depressed for like no reason at all and it kind of bothers me because im like the one thats always tlkn to everyone and tryin to be nice but lately ive been so quiet and i don tlk to anyone really any more and its scary because i dont wanna be alone it scares me but i cant get out of this black hole and i dont wanna fall back into my old ways    but i have no idea what to do i feel like when im tryin to be happy and tlk to my friends is all fake… and i dont like it… it makes me wanna sit and cry               this is the worst its ever been especially when im about to cry in fron of everyone in the school…. can someone plz help me?…