he has showed at my safe place-my church for the last two days-i’m the kind of church nerd who is there almost everyday-and each time we act like we dont see each other. this was my safe place! he is ruining all the process i’ve made! i was fine, i could text him even. but seeing him. thats different. it brings back memories of how stupid and nieve i was. how hard i fell for him and then the tool. he doesnt get that seeing him kills me. this is unfair! why doesnt he go to his other church and leave me mine! why do i feel this way about someone god calls me to love! why does christianity have to be so hard?……