Fork in the road
Of never ending pain
Catch in my throat
As I remember how I held you close
Tears glaze my eyes like
A thousand stars tainted by anger
Streams like raindrops fall, cracking my watercolour mask.
A hole where you used to be
Is left inside of me
Memories trip me up as I try to run away from
Is it only a matter of time before I fall back into my old ways?
The tainted comfort, sweet release?
I’m not as strong as I used to be.
I’m silently screaming for help
But no one hears
N0 one sees past the wall I have built around my heart
Past the lies and lame excuses
We’re all too scared of the truth
But if you could read my thoughts, you’d see how close
I am to ruining all of this.
Somebody, please help me before I give up the fight.