Ever have those days that you feel like you arent really here. like youre just watching everything around you like its a movie. you cant focus at all. today was one of those days for me. everythings getting bad… there’s a lot of stress in my life. i havent really hurt myself in about a month but ive been having issues with food lately. im scared. i dont want to replace this with something else thats just as bad. i really feel like im losing control though. i cant control anything. days like today dont help. i felt so out of control. like my body just moved from class to class and did what it needed to do and my brain was unconnected.