I feel as if whenever I need someone the most,that’s wheni have No one at all. For the past year and 2 months I’ve been trying to fight these urges to SI. But I feel like sometime soon I’m going to just explode and start again. My mom has been yelling at me constantly and i don’t have my dad here. I can’t open up to friend because I find it so hard. I just need someone to talk to to keep me from thinking. Ahhhhhhhh I just wanna screaaaaammm