I’m still at school right now but I’ve been having a really bad first two days back. Yesterday my boyfriend went way to far we’ve been dating for about 3 weeks now. He wouldn’t stop and i’ve given him many chances he’s messed them all up. Then last night i broke up with him i felt i had no choice… then he started saying how much he liked loved me…its been 3 weeks…he told me he would take a bullet for me and and i was his first girlfriend and he didn’t know how to treat me I don’t know if i should believe him or not (what do you think?). Then today my friends were glad that I broke up with him…I told them I was thinking about getting back together with him and they got a little mad and kept teasing me even when i started getting mad. They said if i started going out with him again they wouldn’t support me in the relationship and they are really my only friends but I’m not so sure they’re real friends anymore. :\ In history my ex/boyfriend had an opinion on something and It offended my best friend she got mad and I kind of understood but she was freaking out and I was being nice and standing up for him but also wasn’t getting mad at her and being nice…she started being mean. I just decided to let her do whatever. So my only friends are mad at me for a stupid reason and I’m upset….they both hate the guy i like… UGH. I hate my life. I was walking down the hallway to get to the class i’m in right now (both of my friends are in this class) they had moved their things and I’m sitting alone. But before i was walking here halfway about to cry and one of them come up to me and say “will you talk to me and act your age?” I was talking to her before…and Then i started crying which was really embarrassing. People saw me crying at the beginning of class and everyone saw me…no one cared. No one loves me why does my life stink so much? Once this guy told me that I was a accident…my mom and dad did it had me my accident and then got divorced because of me….it’s probably true. I’m thinking about tonight…about SI. If anyone has advice for me tell me but if not it’s fine. I guess i can deal with it. I’m use to getting hurt like this it’s happened all my life.
you are not an accident, i dont about who told you that but i can promise you that you are no accident. you have a purpose, a reason, one that you can discover and prove the rest of the world that they were wrong. please hear what i’m saying and dont hurt yourself, i understand that sometimes si-ing seems like the easy and familiar way to react but it won’t solve anything…
There is a point. There is always hope. You can do this.
I know how it feels to be alone. It’s really scary. But if this boy mistreated you then you shouldn’t stand for that! 🙂 Just do whatever you think is right. If you still love him then tell him that this is his last chance because you’re strong and you need to surround yourself with positive, supportive people.
Hope this helps. 🙂
Staystrong
OK first off i have to say i’m old enough to be your mom probably (god where did the time go) but I will put my 2 cents in anyway…girl!!! your homegirls are always going to act like that ..my friends are still that way and we still flip flop back and forth and sadly guys aren’t any different either with girls at my age. we are literally from different planets….but! know that you will move on from this someday soon ie. college or graduation and may or may not be friends with the same crew. So try to work on your own happiness and not theirs.your true friends and true boyfriends will be able to judge your genuine happiness and know whatever it is is right for you…does that make sense? sometimes you may have to be the one to lay it all on the line and say ok..OK lets do this people and set the relationships straight. communication is key.. SI will not change the way your friends are acting or the confusion of it all really..so again just try to work on your own happiness and let them figure out theirs. keep your head up. you can do it.