The pain you caused me is

Eating away at Me.

Secrets that have Leaked

Scars that  Don’t seem to be healing.

Crying only helps for awhile,

Until the tears run out and the pain is still There

Injuring only helps for awhile

Until the urge is gone and the problems are still

There. Worse.

Falling

Spinning

Hoping

Wishing

Lying

Helpless

I can’t make it go away.

Pain is the ocean

Waves crashing on a broken shore

Littered with tools and broken promises.

Pain is lightning

Striking,

Violent.

Pain is my new best friend

Saving me from the numbness that

Blinds me like fog.

Hope is gone

Best friends left

Abandoned me

Alone

To try to hold my breaking pieces together.

It would be easy

So easy

To just go back to old habits

But it would be so hard

To come back.

I can’t decide

I don’t know anymore

Am I strong?

Can I really do this?