I’m lost in this separation from God, torn between what’s right and wrong. I can’t seem to let go of what I’m holding so tightly, can’t seem to forget the hurt it’s caused. I need to move on, and forget, but I can’t. Once again I’m in this place of confusion and hurt.

I want to take a step forward, or is it really a step backwards. Will this cause me to take a step to the end, or to a new beginning? Maybe if I completely lose it, if I hit rock bottom, I’ll be able to move on, realize that on this rock bottom is just hurt and pain and if I keep going on this path I’ll lose myself forever.