cheer tryouts are this week- i have gotten the highest point every year i have tried out-even in 6th grade trying out for jh… but this is for my senior year and its stressing me out, i need this to pay for college… my tool has always got me through but this year its not there and i feel like im losing control-again. i dreamt about doing it last night, i havent done that since i stoped the last time back in oct. i feel horrible knowing how close i am and just needed someone somewhere to know that i really am trying.