Hi, I’m 29 years old and when I was a very young teen, I started injuring.  That lasted until I was about 20 and only one other person besides me knew.  I was also abusing substances from the age of 10 and then got sober.  Now as a wife, mother of kids and someone who’s working on 30, I’ve found myself falling back into those dangerous, obsessive patterns of injuring to deal with all the emotion I can’t seem to process through because that’s how much I hurt and I’m screaming out and it seems like no one sees.  I feel like by this point in my life and career, I should be able to deal with my emotions, but I can’t.  I’ve been injuring for the last 6 months and it’s very difficult and I find it shameful everytime I look at my kids.  Are there any other adults here that feel the same way. 

Today, I was doing some research and came across the self assessment on this sight and when I took it myself, I was horrified at the reality of my situation and the obsession that goes along with it.  I find myself sober quite a few years and addicted to running again.  That all just perpetuates my emotions and not wanting to feel.