ABUSE :
I live with my dad and grandma right now. My dad has a very very short temper and I try my best not to get him mad. When he does get mad at me he physically abuses me though and so does my grandmother. Both of them also verbally abuse me cursing at me and calling me names. It makes me really upset and frustrated so i go in my room and injure…or something like that. I try so hard not to but i say to myself I won’t do it this is the last time but i keep doing it. Last thing I’m struggling in two main subjects in school and when i come home and they get my grades which are usually C- ‘s and up they get really mad we have a talk and i say i do try my best because i honestly do i don’t know what else i can do. any ideas? please please someone help I’m going through a lot. Plus I just got a boyfriend and I’m not so sure about him. Whenever i hang out with him during school guys walk by and say stuff to him like “get it” and I really don’t like that I wanna go slow this time…i’ve been hurt many times by guys. I’ve been cheated on 3 times. I havnt dated a guy in awhile now and i think i’m ready. But I’m not sure how to deal with him he knows i wanna take it slow and i think he knows i don’t like guys saying that stuff and talking to me about him. The thing is he will do ANYTHING to get attention from guys which worries me. UGHH what should I do? Any advice??
It’s good that you are seeking support, really. There is some support here, but nothing instant unfortunately. Personally, I think it’s nice to just be able to find a place we can all have something in common regardless of age. Find someone you can trust to talk to near by too. It helped me to have an adult I could trust that seemed have some understanding. Is there anywhere else you can go, because abuse isn’t o.k…. you deserve better than that. SI isn’t the answer as much as it seems like it is. I know, I’m struggling too. It’s so hard not to go there. I find some relief just letting someone know my secret, but you need to find someone that you can trust. It’s so much pressure off to have people help me talk through what’s going on. To identify why I do this. It doesn’t always stop it, but it does help.
If you are being abused, you need to tell someone. You can’t just act like nothing is going on. My real father sexually abused me when i was 8 and i didnt tell anyone till almost a month after it happened, and it had gone on for about two, because i was staying with him for the summer. Most ppl take years to tell, and although im glad i told when i did, i wish i would have told sooner. Physical and verbal abuse is just the same. And if your boyfriend isn’t mature enough to stop those guys then he doesn’t care about you. He just wants to use you. I know thats alittle harsh, but its the true and you deserve to hear it. You are strong, whether you know it or not. So don’t be scared. And also, like nedley said, SIing is not the answer. even if it seems like it at the time. Just no that it might heal, but the scars never will. that’s what i keep telling myself. My body deserves better, and so does yours.