I feel there is so much wrong with me, but I can not get any help. I feel like I am going to drown in my misery and all these feelings and that I am going to snap and get out of what I am feeling.
I think I am schizophrenic and depressed. I do not think my mom would care enough to take me to a doctor if I told her and I dont think she would believe me, And I dont think my doctor would help me if I told him. Every online test from medical sites say I should talk to a doctor, and yes I realize these are just online tests, but it doesnt help me believe it is all in my head.
I need help, I want help so badly. I cant get any and I am suffering. I dont know what to do and If I cant get help soon I know I am going to SI again. Soon…
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hey there..
i know since i’m on here i’m prob not much help but since we are all experiencing SI in variying degrees in our lives its good to share ideas. i think its good your self searching and even trying tests online. i think you will have to find either a dr or friend u feel comfortable enough with to let all your feelings out. it sounds cheezy but sometimes self expression helps squash those bad days. like painting, making music something to tip the scale back to the “happier” side. ya know? sorry to ramble, like i said i’m not much help i’m old and still havn’t figured this out myself but again its good your reaching out. keep your head up. keep searching. you are you best support so if u keep reflecting on your life and what you want you will find it. =) hope it helps. take care
-b
You don’t need to be miserable. Don’t allow yourself to be. It may not be as simple as that, but sometimes it is. Picking yourself up isn’t always easiest, but you have to find things that will fill your void, that will provide for the emptiness–writing, blogging, drawing, and other healthy means of expression are best.
Remember, it is your doctor’s JOB to help you, and if you ask, they will. If there is something wrong or you think there might be, you have to speak up. That is the only way you can help yourself. No one knows what goes on in your head unless you tell them! Having that conversation is up to you. It’s a big thing, but you can get through it. All it takes is saying “Hey mom, can we talk?” Toss aside the “what-if’s”…they only get you in circles. Odds are, your mom loves you, and wants you to be the best you that you can be. As does your doctor. If you ask, they will help you! You are capable of talking, and you need to say something if something is bothering you.
I’m glad you’re here, glad you want help. Remember to be honest with those around you as well as yourself, but most importantly, be honest with yourself. You’re loved, and we’re all here for you. I’m here for you. You can do this.
peace, love, strength be with you. <3 rescue