i don’t get it….. every thing was fine for the longest time nothing could bring me down………. i don’t like this feeling i wish i could just not feel……….. where did i go wrong? what did i do that made them hate me so much? i used to have tons of friends and tons of people i could talk to about anything…….. now i sit in my room every night wishing i knew what i did wrong what i did that made them hate me so much……… i just don’t get it !!!!!! what did i do !!!!!
hey
I understand. I used to have two best friends who loved me very much and I loved them too. Then s.i. ruined one friendship and my other now ex-best friend did something so horrible to me that we aren’t friends anymore.
I’m always wondering why she did it… nothing will ever make me understand… I guess sometimes we just have to move on and let the unsolved be a part of our past.
I hope this helps,
Staystrong
oh and don’t wish you could not feel. Being numb is a lot worse than not feeling, so acknowledge the pain, anger, hurt, frustration that you feel, and let it just be. It will pass. 🙂
Staystrong
*being numb is a lot worse than feeling
sorry typo 🙂
Sometimes, other people in our environment can’t deal with the issues we may have. And that’s not our fault, nor is it our problem. Maybe it gets close to their heart or it’s something they can’t understand, and that’s okay. I’ve lost friends to my SI problems before, because I outpoured too much and made it all about me all the time. I’m not suggesting at all that you’re self-centered, but there are times in life where people will not always be empathetic or will understand our situation, and that may leave us alone. This is where we have to pick ourselves up, and try and better ourselves, not only for those we love, but for ourselves most importantly. Use this as well as everything else you go through to make yourself a better person, and try your best, always. Lots of times, the people who really love us can’t handle things, and that’s when we find them lost. Only you can help you, only you can know your limits, don’t rely on other people for that.
Hope this helped.
<3 rescue
And I agree completely with Staystrong. Feeling something is ten times better than not feeling it, because when you show your feelings you are facing your problems. Avoiding things is not the way to solve them. It doesn’t help.