i’m so ticked right now, and i’m even more mad cause its a lame reason to be ticked. my rents told me last night that i would drive to church so they wouldnt have to wait for me to finish drama practice, i decided when i would leave and woke myself up according to that, then this morning they decided they werent going to have me drive so i had 5 min to get ready.. i feel so dumb for being upset, ya’ll’s problems are so much bigger than me. i want to si just to get back at them-i’m so imature and lame-which makes me want to do it even more-sometimes it seems like i will never win.
Self-injury as revenge never EVER pays off. Don’t stress this. Just take a breath and calm down. My mom used to tell me, when I tried to get back at her, “You’re not hurting me, only yourself.” It sounds so cold but it’s true, and it taught me that one does not have the authority to manipulate the emotions of others, and it only backfires on them. Injuring as revenge to someone will only affect you, and put you into deeper hurt than just that. It’s not worth it. Injuring at all isn’t worth it, but especially when it’s like this.
You’re strong, just take a deep breath and wait this out. We are given the gift of reason so we can use our heads before our our feelings, and think out our actions. Let your brain get in the way of your heart the next time you want to injure, because just thinking enough to turn it around can save you so much. And don’t hate your parents, they love you. Always will.
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i know.. its just really hard, like my mom freaked out when she found out i
was si-ing but now she acts like she doesnt even care, she told a whole bunch of people when she found out and now it seems like she just wanted pity. somedays its really hard not to hate her.
That’s understandable. But if you talk to her about it, it may help you out. I’m not saying this to offend you, but maybe she’s the one with the issues. People who want pity for something sometimes have hidden feelings about it as well. She could be scared and confused, because not everyone, especially parents with children who injure, knows how to deal with these things about it. If you can’t talk to your mom, have an adult that you particularly trust maybe help you talk to her or start the conversation for you. I’ve found that easiest in bridging gaps.
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