Have I really gone too far? Is this really the new me? A girl who doesn’t care, who has no motivation, who is constantly doing things she shouldn’t. Is this really me? I thought I had made it past the proverbial ‘hump’ of this journey, I guess not. I would do anything to get things back to the way they were, the way they should be, I’m just not sure how. I haven’t SIed for about a week, so that’s good, but I just don’t know what to do. I’ve gone two months without SIing, and I seemed to be good then. Will this constant up and down ever end, will I ever be ‘normal’? I pray to the God I love, and who loves me that I will.