Wow, right when I thought I was getting happy. My ex boyfriend Evan gets cancer.  He is going to die wish it was me not him )’: I dont know how long he has to live but every single day I msg him on myspace and question myself ‘when will this end?’ Me msging him when I get home from school, I just want it to be normal me and him talking me knowing he will be there the next day. Now I just dont know, I really want to injure but Im holding myself back, I feel I am going into depression agian which is just great! It seems like I can never be happy it seems like no one wants me happy, I have a question god, what did I do to lose one of my best friends?