My name is Michelle. I’ve been clean of SI for about six months but lately I’ve been feeling close to relapsing. I’m twenty now but I first started SI-ing when I was fourteen. I want to stop, most of the time. Today I emailed a therapist to set up a phone consultation. I’m proud of myself for that.

The problem is I’ve been really depressed lately. I’ve stopped attending classes and I don’t hang out with my friends anymore. I constantly fight with my mom. Every second I’m aware that if I could just self-injure I would be okay. It’s how I got through high school. I would self-injure and then I’d be able to focus on school or my homework or whatever. The temptation grows stronger all the time.