As I got on the school bus this morning I was fine. I sat down and my mind went wild. I told myself that I was going to SI when I got into school but I never SI in school. School is my one safe place and I want to keep it that way even though freshman year is more challenging. I didn’t SI but I felt distracted all day. I wrote on here a couple of days ago and I said I would stop SIing. I really want to keep that promise, but I feel like I am going to break down.