I SId last night. My emotions got the best of me and I ended up SIing. That was the worst and I don’t want to experience it again. I was doing fine but my mother knows how to make me feel horrible. She is so caught up with my older sister that she doesn’t realize the pain she is causing me. I wish I had the courage to tell her how I feel but I don’t. SI seems to be taking over my life slowly but surely. I cant handle this.