I can’t take this anymore!! I try and do the right things for everyone and it always comes to slap me in the face… It seems like every time something goes wrong, it ALWAYS has to be my fault… I’m losing my mind, I’m so afraid of what I’m going to do next… Life is cruel… I don’t want to suffer anymore. I wish I could disappear, and no one could find me to yell at me… Because of my self injury, I’m no longer trusted where I live… The urges are so strong, but I haven’t done anything in 3 days, because I can’t. I don’t belong here, I’m tired of everything I’m forced to go through… If I don’t see a change soon, then I don’t know what I’m going to do, because I have given up. I’m done. I just want my pain to go away 🙁
You shouldn’t give up because that’s the easy way out. I’m sure you are strong anough to keep fighting even when life isn’t so great. Keep trying and it will pay off.
Hey lostangel,
I’m Melody. I know how you feel. That everything is your fault but it isn’t. You can find better friends. Your self injury doesn’t have to make you untrustworthy. The urges may be strong now but the more you fight them the stronger you become over the urges. i wish I could tell you they go away but they don’t now matter how long you go without S.I. I’ve been clean two years clean and the urges still get me. But you can better, hope is real and so is help. Your best days are a head without S.I trust me on that one. try and find help because that is the best way for you to get better, and get some support from friends you trust and who ARE going to be there to support you because they care. If you ever need to talk my email is dashdollie10@yahoo.com. Don’t hesitate to email.
~Mel
Lostangel~
You should NEVER give up!!! It will get better, dead is FOREVER! Remember, “what doen’t kill you will only make you stronger”. If you ever need to talk email me at emo_chick44608@yahoo.com. 🙂
~emo2010