you ever have those days were you just want to give up, not because something happened that day or anything you just want to leave forever? i dont know whats wrong with me i feel like im consistently hiding myself and putung on a show for the world. people know me as the girl who is happy and care free with nothing on her mind because shes stupid and doesnt have the capacity to have thought. I bet i spelt capacity wrong but what ever. people are always walking all over me and i dont know what to do to make them stop. i want someone to know me for real and love me, just love me.
I totally understand. It’s like your one person on the outside but something completely different on the inside. My mom is always telling me that no one wants to be around a “downer” all the time, so I try to put on this happy face so people will like me. Inside though, I don’t really care. I want to stop pretending, stop acting like I care – just give up. But at the same time I am so lonely… I feel like no one does know the real me and the one person I did share my feelings with doesn’t want me any more. Its hard to feel lovable when everyone around you turns away. So, I don’t have any answers but I just wanted you to know you aren’t the only one that feels this way. I hope we both will find someone who will love us for all that we are and all that we aren’t.
I totally understand. It’s like your one person on the outside but something completely different on the inside. My mom is always telling me that no one wants to be around a “downer” all the time, so I try to put on this happy face so people will like me. Inside though, I don’t really care. I want to stop pretending, stop acting like I care – just give up. But at the same time I am so lonely… I feel like no one does know the real me and the one person I did share my feelings with doesn’t want me any more. Its hard to feel lovable when everyone around you turns away. So, I don’t have any answers but I just wanted you to know you aren’t the only one that feels this way. I hope we both will find someone who will love us for all that we are and all that we aren’t.