Too many people know about my SI. I should have expected this though, it was either you tell them or they see your scars. I hate myself, I’m stupid and I feel like a loser.  I feel bad because I use I so much when I write in here. Another one of my friends is trying to get me to stop SIing. She asked what she could do to help me stop doing this to myself. I just wanted to cry right then because she was hurt and she actually cared. The said thing is though that there is a little part of me that really wishes she didn’t.  sorry my writting isn’t very flowy its just all my random thoughts coming out. I feel like I am not allowed to be angry, It might be because I don’t allow myself to be. I really don’t know whats wrong with me , I just fail at everything.