It has been 1 year and a couple of months since I last SI-ed. That’s basically the only reason that keeps me from SI-ing. I have no other excuse not to SI. for the past couple of weeks ive been feeling so down. I want someone to talk to, but im not really the type of person to let out my emotions to my friends. I’m known as the funny, outgoing girl, but inside im not. I feel comfortable telling this to complete strangers, but for some reason i cant let it out to someone i know. I dont want to SI, but its so hard to get it out of my mind. Im afraid that soon, the only reason i have right now won’t even matter. I feel Like SI-ing, but im trying not to… but i cant anymore… agghhh!