Reading every one’s stories is making me realize how little my story actually is. I can remember the first day I SI and I wont ever forget it. I didn’t have a real reason why I did it but just before I did it a feeling came over me. I felt alone,scared and anger. I do have my fair share of problems. My older sister ran away with a horrible man and she ruined our relationship. The man would of killed me if he had the chance but my sister thought she saved me when she went with him but at that point I wish I was dead. I’m known as the pretty and happy teenager but I can’t keep up with every one’s expectations. I went for about 6 months without SIing but I ruined that 2 nights ago. I’m starting over again and I don’t know if I can handle that. Any advice would be helpful because all I need is help from people who understand me.
I’m sure everyone can remember the first time they SI and that time is hardly ever forgotten because it is a part of who you are today. I’m described as the happy teenager as well and I too can’t keep up with everyone’s expectations…the stress from that played in a part of my SI-ing. 6 months is really good, and don’t get put down over a relapse, it happens to us all. You seem like a strong and determined person, I believe you can do it. Don’t give up. 🙂
-Caitlin
xox-caitie-16-xox@hotmail.com
Thank you for replying. I hope I can be strong enough to get through this because I sadly ended up SIing again today. I wan’t to stay strong and have a good out look on life but it seems to be getting harder. Thank you again.