i just found out my sister tried to od the other night. she actually told me she thought about just not ever waking up again. 

i don’t know what to do. i don’t want to SI but i feel so upset. she is my best friend and my only family right now. i feel like this is my fault and i don’t know how to help her. she is such a good person but i don’t know how to make her see that.

i haven’t stopped thinking about SIing since i found out, but if i get caught again i’ll have to go back into counseling. i feel so lost and alone. i can’t stop crying.