I cant handle my life anymore. I feel like im lost and I cant find the door. I SI because I have no other way of release. My life is lousy, my family completely ignores me. My parents dont even love each other anymore. My sister is a total jerk to me and my parents treat me like im not even there when their “Favorite” is around. I SI to get relief from my problems I want to stop but I cant. I cant tell my parents about what im going through because im afraid of what they will think or do. I also have to hide who I am to all of my friends I have to pretend to be this happy-go-lucky person when on the inside and all I want to do is go home and curl up in a ball and never wake up again. Sometimes I think about my life and how I dont want it anymore and I then I cry until I cant breathe and I wake up hours later and I feel like I have escaped it all but then the memories come back and I feel even worse. The worst thing is I have no one to talk to who truly understands what im going through. One thing I do know is that I need help.