Ive gotten to the point were I just want to give up. My friend doesnt believe in God and he said he would go to church with me if I didn’t SI. At first I was so excited about him going because he is one of my best friends and he has been with me through some bad times. We both got our hearts broken by people we deeply cared about and then they went out with each other. We then became friends through that hard time. But I don’t want to let him down. I just want to stop SIing and I want to stop letting my loved ones down. I just don’t know how to not SI. When I stop I feel like I am spinning out of control. I just don’t know what to do. Help