This is really the only other thing that I could think of.  I don’t want to tell my friend that I SI’d last night, for the first time in a month, it’s just… I hurt so much now that I cant really express it, my body just aches.  I’ve been so stressed, from school, friends, myself…  My one friend who SI’s has been bad lately too.  She and I were at a school event, and at one point she stormed off.  She didnt come up after at least 10 min, so I went downstairs to check on her.  The door was locked, and when she came out she was bawling, saying that she had just injured.  It was so awful, to see her in so much pain, I cry just thinking about it.  I just really dont know what to do anymore.  I mean, I dont constantly SI, its more of just random moments when I completely crack and do it.  Next Monday marks one year for me, and I know one year is nothing compared to some people, but it’s really discouraging that I can’t overcome this.  It just makes me wonder if this is going to always happen, all the way through high school and college…