Tonight I really want to SI but before I do, I figured Id post first and see if anyone changes my mind just by chance. My boyfriend and I have been dating a long time. Almost a year and I love him to death. Back in the summer, we found out that I was pregnant [we did not plan it] but we were both happy about it. About a month later, I miscarried. Recently, I have been thinking about our lost baby and its been hurting so badly. Tonight I got annoyed with him and took out my upsetness about the baby on him though he didnt know it and we ended up getting into a huge fight about the baby and both broke down crying because it hurts us both and we both wish the baby had worked out. It hurt me so badly tonight and I really feel like SI-ing. I dont know what to do. It hurts and I never knew it hurt him that bad. :/
Loosing a baby is– well, for me it was just like a tour of hell. And so invisible. Just want to say I’m sorry you’re going through this. I got a newsletter for a while from SHARE that helped, in that it always made me cry/gave me access to all I was felling. I hope you find support.
I’m sorry that this is a bit late, but I hope that night went well. (Just so you know, thank you so much for your comment the other day. it helped a ton and really meant a lot). I cannot even imagine how hard that must’ve been, I’m really sorry for what happened. We all say hurtful things when we’re angry though, and even though he may’ve been hurt, what would probably hurt him even more is if you SI’d. Whenever I get into a fight with a close friend, or with my parents, about injuring or whatever, I always make myself call somebody, not even to talk, but just so I have another person THERE with me. I dunno, it’s just a thought. I hope things work out, but for the mean-time stay strong. I believe in you.