my best friend (a guy) always told me “you can call me whenever you need to talk, im always here for you, im like your guardian angel, think of me as your big brother…” but recently he started ignoring me and wouldn’t tell me why. he wouldn’t even look or talk to me. i asked a friend to talk to him for me, because he refused to talk to me, and she said my depression was making him really stressed out because he cares so much about me and loves me so much. so his way of solving this was to take me out of his life. now i feel horrible and i have no idea how to get him to forgive me.
I can relate with you on this 100%. I had a friend remove me from her life too. To this day I don’t understand it, and at times it still hurts. It’s especially diffcult knowing she struggled with self-injury too.
I can tell you that others have told me again and again that if the person in my case really cared about me as much as she claimed, she would have never left me in a time of need. She was a good friend when things were good, but I’ve concluded that a fair weather friend is nobody I want or need in my life.
I’m really sorry about what happened. About a year ago I had a similar situation with a friend, he couldn’t take me being depressed and SIing, so he walked out. At the time, I was really upset, but thinking back on it now, he was extremely scared and worried. It was really huge for me to tell him what was going on and place a lot responsibility on him (unconsciously), and I honestly kinda get why he walked out now. I mean, in no way am I saying what your friend did is right, it’s horrible and awful, and it’s awful to endure. But it’s a lot harder to follow through with something than simply to say it.